With what happened when I went to visit my mom, with my son with me. I know we talked already, Partly I want to be held by you. To sob in your arms. i partly dont want that. I just want you to sit next to me. Maybe with your hand on my back or shoulder. And no. just want to sit across from you and feel the presense in the room, feel that your near. This telehealth therapy encourages my need to disconnect. I hate having urges to be close to you. I cant talk about that anymore with you, not ever. I had asked you a question about attachment, and decided that I dont want to talk bout it. Not sure if its because of what happened with my mom, but strangely, I dont feel like talking about anything.