I told you my French vanilla fantasy was going to continue to work out today. My delivery came, intact and undamaged. Then an hour later my doctors office called to set up my hysterectomy. He’s booked until October 1st. Which is honestly not as bad as I thought. Although I was also wishing to get in sooner. I have a preop ultrasound and exam on the 22nd of September. Then after the surgery recovery is about 6 weeks but I should be all good for my trip on November 18th. I just have the anticipatory anxiety now which I will work on with my therapists. I know my top surgery will have been just about a year after I get the hysterectomy. So I feel like the timing is good. I was hoping to be back at work in October. But I honestly just want to be stable like I am being told I will be after the surgery. But recovering from a hysterectomy for trans men is tough both physically and mentally. More then the top surgery. So with my SAD starting at the same time, things could be pretty rough. But it will pay off a couple months after and hopefully my new therapist will be helpful.