Hi kitty. First off, congratulations on 18 months of no self harm, quite the feat and hopefully you are proud of yourself. You resisted many temptations!
I’m sorry that you have to deal with the emotional fall out of doing the thing you were trying not to do, the feelings that come with that are over-charged and so sharp but I have faith that you will find the strength again to fight.
We are rooting for you Kitty!! ❤️