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Aug 02, 2021, 07:50 PM
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I see your points @BethRags and @Moose72, but this guy is really special. I meet about one guy every ten years that i really connect with and i value that connection highly.
It makes me feel so alone to like authors and musicians and visual artists and directors and have NO ONE to talk about them with. It's very isolating. I've mentioned that i am wild about the late American author David Foster Wallace (DFW) here many times and this guy is the only one who read him AND commented intelligently on DFW's work.
I've posted links to an online short story that has bearing here as it is about a depressed person and yet this guy was the only one who gave me his time and shared my joy in DFW's work and even tried his novel, his magnum opus.
Moose, imagine if someone followed up on the music pieces you mention.
Wouldn't that be very precious to you? To be able to share your passions?
To broaden each others horizons by introducing each other to favorite artists and share joy in them?
Because of this guy i now know the work of the late Russian director Andrei Tarkovsky and the music of Miles Davis. I am a better person for having known this guy and who knows what else he has to teach me?
We're both in agreement that it will be a platonic long-distance relationship by email, essentially a friendship of pen-pals. We got excited and talked about a visit and ZOOMed but neither of us really want that, we just got over-excited.
I feel so lonely without him and so isolated. Me, all alone with my passions for the arts and no one to talk to about them.
Sure, he has some baggage, but so do i. He maybe used bad judgment by telling me all about his weaknesses in a ten (10) paragraph email, but he was in a rush and maybe he forgot himself, forgot that i'm not a bottomless well of support.
I've asked for a second chance, realizing that i was too quick to react when he confided his weaknesses. He used bad judgment in telling me about them and i used bad judgment in over-reacting to them, so we are both at fault and i just hope that he can find it in his heart to forgive me.
Hugs,
Sweet Jane.
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