So Sorry for what you're going through! Please Do not give up! Hugs. i agree with you as well as the other wise and wonderful posters about considering therapy if you want to try. From what you wrote it seems like this thing is bothering you so i'd say it may be necessary to discuss it. It can take time before finding a good fit but don't let that discourage you from trying then. i Hope things will improve really soon for everyone. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @Whereto52, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!