I have my chat therapy appointment later on today with J. I'm nervous. I don't exactly know what a chat therapy session will be like but because of his schedule it was the one I could fit in on my lunch break. Since I will be at work, I decided to do chat because I definitely don't want anyone overhearing. And....I always do this. I have no idea what to talk about. When I am stable I seem fine. And I can't think of when I wasn't stable and to talk about that. Even though it was literally a few days ago. I'm nervous though. I feel it in the pit of my stomach.