So Sorry that you aren't feeling that Good! Please Do not give up! i agree with the wise and wonderful Moose72 about seeing how you Feel right now. In any case try not to let this negative thinking get to you. Do try your Best and of course be reasonably cautious but if things are Going well i don't think you should be too worried about it. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @Mountaindewed, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!