Thanks for the feedback. I heard that the parents were a couple who came together each with 2 kids and then got pregnant with me when they were married. Since I was truly "theirs" - doesn't make sense to me that I was put up for adoption. But, my father was "in the military" and didn't make a lot of money (for 5 kids total). Anyway - apparently, I do know their names and may look into it more now. I'd hate to upset my adoptive mother. She did give me the story and eventually their name, so I have to think she wouldn't be too hurt by it. She's a woman of the mid 1900's - meaning, she grew up through the depression era, WWII and on. She had a mildly abusive husband (my adoptive father) who treated her more like a woman-houseworker than loving wife. But that's how they did it back in the 50s.

I may talk it over with adoptive mom to say "you know, I hope you're not going to be hurt by this but I wouldn't mind contacting my bio-family. Nothing against you - but it's something that I may need to do to complete my life." So much has been held over my head by my adoptive mom. Paying for college and then saying stuff like "I invested in you so much for you to waste it on ." I felt sometimes more like a purchased product than someone who was supposed to be nurtured by a family.