Dear AgentQ9A,

I wish I knew the cause of the situation you face. I struggle with a similar situation. In my case, it is the illness of depression that destroys my motivation and handicaps my energy. Depression is such a cruel and brutal illness.

I sure hope you find solutions to your dilemma.

So sorry that I can not be helpful to you in this. Maybe other members here will see your post and respond with something helpful. I hope so!

Sincerely yours, Yao Wen