With everything that's going on right now, and everything that I know I need to do when i get back home, it's all building up inside me. NOt only do I have 21 years of crap that needs therapy, but today just added to that pile. I don't handle these types of situations very well, it's just like when I had my first nervous breakdown at 17, it's all starting over again. I waited in the support chat but no one showed up. I dont' have anyone to talk to in real life and I can't get to therapy until I come back to the states in august.

I was having a panic attack just like I used to. It's a familiar feeling...undeniable.