I had this strange dream last night where I almost wanted? To have romantic feelings with my current therapist. But when I woke up I did not feel any romantic feelings for her. I wish I knew why I had such strong feelings for my transference therapist but I don’t feel anything for my current therapist. It’s just confusing. My transference T was the first therapist I had a crush on since my high school therapist in 2011. But it’s almost like I want to be attracted to my current t but I’m just not. It’s weird.

Edit: thanks T for responding to the email I sent on Monday. But the email didn’t make me feel any other emotion except I feel like I have your support.

Although you always focus on the anxiety part and I guess that’s why you said in our second session that you can really only help me with my anxiety and not the other stuff.