I think that I am hitting a stable point. Seriously feels like it. I am enjoying this feeling a lot.

Feeling the motivation itself to quit smoking is really good. It feels like it is working up to be that I actually do.

I tried meditation. I am just a beginner, so meditation is a little unknown and I don't think I quit got there. However, the images and voices were a little bit like they were calmed down from being so abusive. They were rather sweet actually. And the effect lasted quite a long time. I tried this because a friend wanted to tell me to meditate. It seems helpful to me, so I should keep doing this and become one grand old meditator to solve my problems. I can see myself getting better and better when I really want to try. It was very relieving to hear it all be not so demeaning and angry.