When I lost my first therapist that I had for 7 years she terminated me after I ran away from a group home that was abusive. I cried and I still miss her still after 11.5yr's. I am now with a therapist that is helping me work through the abandonment I think losing therapist can be devasting and a grieving process.

My therapist that I have now is back from sick leave. She was on sick leave for 3 months it was very hard for me and all the abandonment feelings came back. This is something im working on currently with my therapist. The feelings hurt so much and are very intense.

I hope you find another therapist that can understand and support you. Your feelings are very valid. I know for me people in my life just have a hard time understanding. You are not alone here. Hugs