Dear T,

Having a bad day today. I can't get my head around the fact that you aren't there anymore. That I may never again be able to talk to you. That you won't help me to finish this work with Teenage One. That you have left me to figure out how to navigate this crazy world without you.

I wish I knew what was going on for you. I wish I knew what had happened to cause all of this. I wish I could understand how this has happened, how you can't see that this needs an ending.

It just doesn't make any sense!

Sat under my blanket hiding from the world.

I miss you so much, and the only way I am feeling some sort of connection to you is by checking my WhatsApp and seeing what time you last logged on. Imagining you on your phone.

You said that you would leave the light on for Teenage One. Her response? Great, only problem is, no-one is home.