Update:
Logically, I have forgiven L. It was my fault I put her in that situation, she thought she was doing something good, there was no harm that became of it, and we're working so it never happens again. She is not a bad person, nor a bad therapist. She is still trustworthy in many ways, she's not defensive, I love her, and we both choose to stay on this journey together.

All that being said, I'm still hurt and feel distrust. And I don't know why. L and I are trying to sort through it all, but we both can't seem to figure out what my problem actually is. I can't come up with the words or even pinpoint why I'm still hurt.

I have contacted T and asked her for a consult session. I haven't heard back from her yet, but I'm hoping a third-party will be able to help.

I'd like to ask you all too if you have any hunches about why I'm still hurt and don't trust her. It's an emotional thing; not a logical thing. But I'm hoping it I can put words to it, L and I can work through whatever "it" is, and we can move forward.

Also, my dad suggested I do trust exercises with L to build trust. We're NOT going to fall back and have the other catch us. And I'm not doing truth or dare because it would hurt if either one of us chose dare (plus I don't like the dare part). So any suggestions for building trust is welcomed!