This whole Covid situation is making me a bit S tonight for the first time in awhile. Although I know if I try anything it could majorly screw up the stuff I have going for me. My insurance may say I’m not mentally stable to go through surgery or something like that. I’m just gonna have to hang on for tonight. My new melatonin does seem to be kicking in. I see my therapist on Monday and my Pdoc on the 16th. I don’t need any of my meds switched but he is great at reassuring me about things. I try to be as professional as I can with my current therapist. Which doesn’t necessarily mean being honest. But maybe I should just tell her how I really am scared about Covid and things shutting down again.

Ok so I just took a second melatonin. These are time release ones so I’m not sure exactly what 20mil will do. So far I’m just a bit groggy. I guess I should have thought about my blood work before taking an extra one. Physically I am fine but I have bad cholesterol and kidney issues that don’t cause any problems currently but I don’t want them to start causing problems.

But so far I’m just feeling pretty trippy. I should check the calendar to see when I’m supposed to deal with PMS. Still 18 days away. I must just be feeling crappy tonight for no reason.