So I guess I should be 'pleased' that I have now found two Ts who might be able to do this work with me. But I don't feel all that pleased. Both have talked about building trust, establishing a relationship. But I already did that with you. That's what I spent all that time, energy and money doing, so that we could do the work, and then you just walk out on that. What options do I have though. I don't really want to shut it all away again, not when I have come so far. I don't really want to ignore the elephant in the room any more. I want to deal with it and I do believe that this needs some external support. And you aren't there, so I guess that means I have to do it with someone else. Maybe, just maybe though, all that work that we did will mean that it won't take as long to trust someone else. It does kind of feel like that, which is surprising me. A lot. Like Little One is just ok with all of this, somehow, and maybe me and Teenage One can learn a thing or two from her!