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nonightowl · Aug 06, 2021 at 02:00 PM

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Originally Posted by Cowtownboots95

Hi I'm new to this thread.Anyway I lost my Mom 6mons ago.I was extremely close to her.We were like best friends.It hurt me very much when I had to put her in a nursing home the last 3yrs of her life due to dementia.Anyway.I have nobody to talk to I'm bipolar and my counselor just ghosted me So basically nobody calls anymore so I'm on my own.Has anybody had this experience yet.Just lonely and reaching out .

It took 4 attempts to reach my previous therapist, who finally answered me. But it shouldn't take that many calls/emails for someone to RESPOND. She acknowledged as such, saying she's had a lot of turmoil so anytime she tried to reply something would happen. I get that she's human, but I can't afford her anymore anyway. She did acknowledge how disappointing and hurtful that must have felt, as her profession of all people should "know better". I had gone to her for years.

During 2020, and now 2021, most of my "friends" don't call me anymore. I have to be the one to initiate communication AND keep it going. It's getting exhausting and one sided, and I'm sick of it. They all KNOW I have no family, live alone, have hardly any friends and unfriendly neighbors, yet they stay away now.

I just went for a walk with a volunteer from this non-profit that offers that, but this woman had to bring up FAMILY. "Do you have any family around here?" After a deep breath, swearing inside, I said, "I don't have any family left." An awkward silence followed, then she asked me have I been in the area long.

She didn't even say sorry about family! That's the trite response, at least give me THAT. I know a lot of women in my age group have fulfilling lives with their spouses, kids, grandkids, second career, etc. But some of us don't and are struggling.

Turns out she won't be able to walk again, as her schedule is so full again. This was the first time, but good riddance. Not even sympathy.

I think death is uncomfortable but esp. in the U.S. There's a kind of denial about it, even with COVID still going on!

I lost both parents, 2 years apart. I wasn't close to either but haven't had anyone to really talk to. I did have a therapist briefly about 3 months this year, but she left the organization and now I have to get used to a new therapist. I haven't talked to her just yet, but I don't like change. And therapists usually give one some structure. Not this place. It's highly disruptive to do that to people. I heard it has a high turnover. I told her if SHE leaves in 3 months, I'm done with their program.