I totally get the whole not being able to just do 'talk therapy for trauma'. No way, hose! I have been doing much more creative work, along with talking, writing etc. We sit at a desk and have used figures, games, drawing, creative arts etc. I've just lost my T unexpectedly so am in the process of finding someone else who can work in this way.

I hope you can find a way forwards, now and in the future, and isn't it interesting how our perspectives can change depending on where we are at the time. Probably a useful thing for most of us to remember sometimes!