The general consensus in my house is that every time I get upset I'm overreacting. I've pretty much believed this myself a lot of the time but there have been times when I really resented it.
I constantly feel as though I have to keep myself under control but it's impossible sometimes. The emotion is so powerful it's like it just bursts out of me.
I came to realize that if I were 'normal', my reactions would most likely be overreacting.
But I'm not 'normal'. I never have been. I never will be. I'm fine with that because mental illness is all I've ever known, and whether the people around me like it or not, they can keep getting mad about it which is and has been counterproductive, or they could gently remind me that I'm going off the deep end again, preferably in an amusing manner.
My reactions are perfectly normal for someone with bipolar 1 and who knows how much my other diagnoses contribute to such powerful, uncontrollable emotions.
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