I'm frustrated right now. I haven't felt a whole lot while pulling all the pieces of my trauma together which seems odd.. I'm not even really sure why. It's like I'm numb or disconnected from them.. I guess I really haven't thought about it much but I should really bring it up in therapy Tuesday. Ugh! Exhausted. I don't even know if there is anything she can do but it seems silly to do trauma and not also deal with the emotions of it all. I do think that is the more that I kept feeling like was coming. It seems right now that the only time I can let myself cry, if it's gonna happen, is therapy and occasionally on the phone with mom. I have NEVER been good at the emotional side.. Dang it.. it was a lot maybe it is just pure overwhelm right now and it will come in time. Now I'm just blabbering...thanks.