@NaoSky Divorce is hard. I was the divorcER and it was very difficult for me, too. I cried and wanted my family back. I cried because the kids would never have an intact family. (As it is, they grew up with their grandparents and me and they don't have any issues with it.) I sometimes feel that I rushed into divorce and didn't think it through- got on the phone with a lawyer who of course wanted me to go through with it! How gullible was I? And maybe I was having an episode at that time? I wouldn't be diagnosed for another 5 years! Oh what I wouldn't give to be able to go back in time and have a therapist or pdoc say "Wait a minute... Don't be so hasty!"