wow. i like what you just said. and that makes alot of since. sometimes i try that but most of the times i yell....lol...and i am trying not to swear or say bad names or brake things or anything like that. my sons' father was a very mean person and a very bad person he brong out the worst in me that i didn't think i had in me or that i had it hiden so well because of what i gone through. that makes since. i could not really say how angry i was or how hurt i was because i didn't want to hurt anyone's feelings or start a fight or anything so i keep it inside of me until i meet my son 's father and then that is when everything came out. and now i don't hold back i say how it is when i feel it is the right place or sometimes i just don't care anymore. you get in my face and you see what happens..that is how i feel. you hurt me i tell you. but then to others i am not to feel.