So Sorry for your Losses and for what you're going through! Please Do not give up! Hugs. i think anxiety can be pretty hard to deal with so please don't feel too discouraged about that. It is good that you're taking mecs but perhaps helong with a therapist may be be able to help even more perhaps? If you aren't already seeing one obviously. Stay Safe. Sending many Safe, hugs to BOTH you, @AgentQ9A, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!