You were helpful today. Even if I left your office in a depression. But it wasn’t you. If I need to get over this thing with transference T it may get tougher before it gets better. I hope things go as easily as you say they will with the new T. I thought it was interesting that you are the same age as my transference T. Yet I have zero transference with you. So I’m not sure exactly what was so attractive about her.
You validate my feelings while also pushing me and can see through my ********. I mentioned being ghosted by 2 therapists at once and I had gone to the ER that weekend because I had chest pains and I thought I had a blood clot from my surgery and it was just post op pain but I was on muscle relaxers so I was feeling like crap physically. You said “it was a lot going on” and the way you said that just made me feel completely validated.
I’m not sure how hard it will be to transfer to someone else. Although you have confidence it will be a smooth transfer.
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They say that we're out of control
And some say we're sinners
But don't let them ruin our beautiful rhythms
Sam Smith-Fire On Fire
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