I saw T on Friday, and it was our last session before an 11 day break (I'm going out of town). We're in the middle of some intense trauma work, and I was sitting there in the office at the beginning of session feeling like I SO do not want to get into that before break. But I didn't know what else to do. So I asked him if he had any games or cards around so we could just play He didn't, but he invited me to bring a deck of cards and leave it there so we could play when I wanted to.

We DID do the trauma work. When we talk about it, he sits with me on the couch, I think to help me feel less alone. It feels good to have him there, and I DO feel less alone. But it still SUCKED, and I left wishing we could have just played. It would have felt better to just connect with him instead of opening up those old wounds.

SO, I've decided I need some play therapy. I'm going to bring Uno to my first appointment after break and see if he'll play with me (I know he will). I just want to sit on the floor, and play, and connect, and be there and feel safe and take a break from the heavy stuff.

I know there was a thread on here about playing games with T. And I think someone...kiya, maybe?...does play games with T. Does anyone else play games in therapy? I actually have this HUGE desire to fingerpaint with T too.

Seriously, I think I'm regressing in every way. Is that "normal"? Any thoughts?

Maybe I'm in the parental transference a little too deep. Or maybe a younger "me" wants some time in there. Hmmm.