I always find if I dig enough I realize thr things that really bother me relates to my core issues. May T acted in a way she she should not, she didn't protect you, and made you feel vulnerable. Have people in your past done the same yo you?

Recently, T touched a huge nerve and really upset me in a session. After a lot of self analysis, I realized that while it was never my Ts intention, it made me feel stupid and consequently she would abandon me. My dad made me feel stupid for trying to have contact with him. He had abandoned me. My dad was supposed to to always be there for me and be a cheerleader but he never was. If I was not good enough for my dad to stay in my why would T.