I almost always felt vulnerable especially growing up. No one was there to protect me. I think what might be bothering me is that I completely let my guard down with L. I have forced myself to talk about hard things (all have paid off). I now feel like I have to protect the relationship myself. I keep having anxiety attacks after session, and we think it might be because of that.

I do know that "sharing" people with those in my life has never really worked out. And I think that might be where the betrayal comes in?