I over-react when hypo-manic. It seems like i'm just being uber-decisive but really it is just because i'm so excitable. Have had to apologize several times. My one close neighbor Louise has forgiven me twice and said not to worry about it, she's just glad i am feeling better. She's very gracious but she is also 15 years older and very healthy and stable and methodical.

I'm trying to make amends to another person who is in recovery like me and he hasn't responded to my two contacts so i fear i ruined it with him forever. Not sure if my emails are even getting thru. I know he's blocked all PMs on this site, so it's possible that he has ghosted me.

He went offline to attend to his health before tho, so perhaps it is just that. I know his "last active" stat here on the site is August 1st at 1:30pm. I do not know if that means the last time he POSTED or the last time he LOGGED-IN. Perhaps he has just been reading.

Anyways, back on topic, yes i have ruined a few relationships by over-reacting while hypo-manic, people very special that i haven't been able to replace. I enjoy all sorts of people but only connect deeply with those few-and-far-between and tend to get intense about them and want more than they can give, when it's clearly in my best interests just to take what they offer.

I'll look into DBT skills for impulse control as Nammu suggested. It's only a problem i have while hypo-manic tho, so i kind of doubt it's something i can be reasoned out of.

Yes, i have a lot of regrets.