First of all, I understand the emotional turmoil you are going through. Love yourself no matter the circumstances and keep doing whatever keeps you healthy- that includes therapy, healthy eating, cutting down on alcohol and getting some exercise. Like the other posters have pointed out, we cannot say if she is going to unblock you. Even if she does, how will you have a healthy relationship with her unless you have one with yourself? Work on yourself and pay off the debt as soon as you can. Once the stressors are gone from your life you will feel like a new man. If you are happy and fulfilled others will also gravitate towards you.