So Sorry for what you're going through! Please Do not give up! Hugs. i am not sure if i have anything useful to say but i'd suggest to give it a try anyway. i understand that it is still a bit scary but if you follow the rules the risk shouldn't be too high i believe. Even still, i think it is important to accept that bad things can happen so you have to decide by yourself if you believe it is worth taking some risks. There is no right or wrong answer i believe, just what you feel may be the best for you at least in my opinion. i Hope things will improve really soon for everyone especially as far as the pandemic is concerned. Please Do not give up. Update us if possible if you want to obviously. Sending many Safe, warm hugs to BOTH you, @DazedandConfused254, your Family, your Friends and ALL of your Loved Ones! Keep fighting and keep rocking NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS, OK?!