((((((((((((((((((((( debbie ))))))))))))))))))))))) yes, it does hurt and i'm sorry for what you had to endure by those who were supposed to nurture, love and protect you.

i can tell you that i've been in therapy and it's saved my quality of life. have you considered therapy? i think it could really help you deal with alot of what happened to you and place it and be able to deal with life "today" a little more stress free. as a survivor of childhood abuse, you might have to take the initiative to no longer let those ppl have control over you any longer...by way of emotions and memories.

i wish you alot of things right now. please consider therapy if you're not already seeing one. you deserve and need to heal...we all do