In Session Yesterday: We started out by talking about my appointment today for a diagnostic mammogram and diagnostic ultrasound. He asked me if I was nervous and I said that I was (although I am not now, but I will probably be really anxious right before the appointment). He basically just validated my emotions saying that it was normal to be feeling stressed. He asked me how I had been coping with stress recently which led right into me telling him about my relapse with SH. He was okay with it. He said 18 months is a long time and to be proud of the 18 months. He asked me if the relapse lasted one day or multiple days and I said one day and he was very pleased by that. He said I had done everything I was supposed to do by getting back on the horse so to speak and getting things back in place to make it successful for me to continue my journey toward freedom. We talked about some hobbies I have intentionally picked up in the three weeks since I have seen him since we have been talking about putting more joy into my life. And he thought those were good. We talked about a guy I kind of like at Church which is unusual because I identify as being asexual but I definitely find him attractive. He gave me some advice as to what to do since it's been a long time since I have dated. I still don't know if anything will actually come out of it since I am quite content being single but I do like him and am attracted to him so that's something. I don't know if he is attracted to me at all so that's something I don't know. Dr. K said just try being friends first and hanging out as friends and seeing where that goes. We talked about my case manager and the test/quiz that she gave me concerning depression and anxiety and how I fell on the moderate scale. He asked me if I knew the name of the test but I said that I didn't. I told him some of the questions but I didn't know the name of it. He seemed to know what I was talking about. It was a struggle to get through the whole session, to find stuff to talk about for the entire 50 minutes. We talked about me being suicidal for like 7 days and stuff like that and what I did to alleviate those feelings. But it was still hard to fill the 50 minutes. I did find myself more relaxed about 40 minutes in which is when we started talking about dating which I didn't think I was going to bring up but I was out of stuff to talk about. Again I wonder if I should quit therapy. But then other professionals around me seem to think I need more support not less. So I don't know. It's just hard to fill the therapy hour and that makes me think it is time to end. He didn't really have any helpful suggestions about stuff. It was more like a nice supportive chat. I can have a nice supportive chat with my parents for free. I don't know what to do. I was exhausted after the session though.