My therapist emailed me. She said she called my mom since she’s my emergency contact person. She told me that sending crisis emails is not an appropriate way to handle things since she doesn’t always check her emails or is with clients. But both her and my mom agree that I need to cancel the interview.

It’s social security disability. I don’t know if that’s what you mean Beth. But basically I have been be ok financially since not working since June 2020. Especially with the help of the 3 stimulus checks we got. I also have good medical insurance so my medical bills are not much. I’ve been doing just fine.

But I won’t cancel the surgery Moose. I get so worked up like this because my hormones make my moods so out of control and the only way to fix them is to get this surgery. So it’s really really important. More then working right now.

I had a medical condition come up a couple days ago and I needed to go get a urine test done at the doctors today. My physical health is not great right now anyways. Especially with my eating habits.

But I took my Geodon and a Valium and I’m just trying so hard to calm down right now.

But I’m just so mad at myself