When I was in college my roommate was my very best friend. I'd never had that kind of friendship before and it was great. After I graduated and moved 2 states away we kept our friendship up with visits and lots of time chatting on AOL AIM. Then I moved back a few hours from her, she had a baby, my bipolar was really bad and things started to get stressful.

One day she came to my house essentially uninvited with a letter stating everything she thought I was doing wrong in handling my life and that I was not who I said I was and a lot of faith based things. She told me one of my friends only put up with me because he felt sorry for me. It was really awful and it came when I was suicidal. When confronted about that a few months later she said it was a risk she had to take. So risking my life was ok.

Anyway, time passed and I considered things and eventually I cut things off. I did not do it in a way I would call mature now (with a long time to grow up and learn about life) And it bothered me. So after many therapist sessions about this I mailed her a letter yesterday saying I was sorry for my part in handling the end of our relationship. It was worded better than that though.

And now I'm nervous about what happens next. Either she reads it and sees it for what it is, she sees it and thinks bad things, she wants to talk more or not, etc. I don't want a new relationship with her. I know she acted out of what she felt was right, not malice, but I don't want to be hurt again.

The waiting is going to be hard. My therapist says if 6 weeks pass and I've not heard I won't. We'll see.