Hi Katie! I read your post and I think you can try to control your impulses and develop some boundaries. Oftentimes we feel like doing something, but if we do it at the wrong time or place it can make other people uncomfortable. If you are not sure how to navigate this path, you may consider therapy. Work on yourself rather than worrying about your boyfriend or his reactions. Treat this incident not as something bad but as a wake up call to take charge. Above all keep loving yourself, you're amazing!