I’m sorry about yesterday. Last night I got some fried fish and French fries for dinner. It was the most I ate in days. I then went to bed right after and I woke up and I finished the fish around 3:30. I woke up this morning at 4:30 feeling much better. I believe that last night I was just severely hungry from my recent restricting that I just had a panic attack and I lost it. I am still confident in my decision not to do the interview. I called them this morning and I talked to a cashier I assume, who will relay the info back to the manager and she will call me. But hopefully she doesn’t call.

But literally the only difference from yesterday to today was that I ate an actual meal for the first time in a long time. Not rice cakes. Not a bowl of cereal. But an actual meal.

I didn’t realize how much of a problem my eating was.

But thanks everyone for your help and replies and concerns.