I feel guilty about what happened yesterday afternoon. I never heard back from the place. So I guess they just don’t want to deal with me at all. I was just in a lot of discomfort and pain from whatever gynecological issue I was having. Today it’s ok. But yesterday it really hurt and I was wondering how I was supposed to handle a job if I kept getting these types of infections every couple weeks. Also the guys sudden change in attitude towards me freaked me out. But I feel bad that I freaked out so badly and sent crisis emails to my therapist. I hope she doesn’t hold that against me when I see her again. Although I know we will discuss it. At our last session she was really pushing me to go back to work now and she was saying it would be ok to be hired and then leave a month later for 6 weeks. I know my food restriction and frequent infections have been a big part of things. But I feel like I really overreacted yesterday.

Today I feel ok physically. Just down and depressed. I think I have about 10 more days until I get my supposed period. Hopefully I only have a few more months of feeling like crap in general.