So I felt better this afternoon after I took my lamictal, propalanol, 20mil Geodon, and my 3rd Valium at 2PM. I also had a couple beef jerky/cheese combo sticks and a Gatorade. I’m in bed now and I’m wearing my moms giant pink striped pajamas. I look like Ralphie from a Christmas Story when he’s wearing the bunny suit. I need to get some of my own mens pajamas especially before the 1st of October. But I think those ones that come packaged with the shirts are only out at Christmas time. But I’m not sure.

I organized my food rack this afternoon and yeah I basically eat the same things. I have a lot of ramen, a couple boxes of cereal, 11 bags of rice cakes, oatmeal, and Goldfish crackers. I have a few other small things and some Pepsi Blue and my zero sugar soda on the 2 bottom shelf’s. I have a stash of candy bars in the pantry in the house that I don’t eat unless it’s a hormone emergency.

I’m thinking of going to the store tomorrow morning to get some pumpkin spice Cheerios and either Special K pumpkin spice or very berry Cheerios. The news has me freaking a bit so I feel like having a couple extra boxes of the things I eat the most isn’t a bad idea. I don’t feel like it’s hoarding or panic buying when I go through 2 boxes of cereal a week and a bag of rice cakes in 2.5 days.

My mom said to me today “for someone who doesn’t eat you sure use a lot of dishes.” So I guess she is noticing about my restricting but just isn’t saying anything.