I went to bed early last night- relatively, anyway. I woke up around midnight to gun shots! I was too groggy to actually get up and look out the window and just fell back asleep. I dreamed that I'd been shot 4 times and was bleeding a lot and I just stood there amongst all these people who refused to take me to the hospital! Then around 11 a.m. today I got an email from the apartment complex saying that there had been a shooting- around midnight! One person died. I swear- I moved from my last neighborhood partly because I needed a 1-bedroom instead of a 3-bedroom but also because it was dangerous there. I read some online reviews of my old neighborhood and it was all about the prostitution and guns, etc. that were there! So here I am thinking I've moved to a much better neighborhood- the apartment itself is much nicer, even though it's smaller anyway- and this happens!
I'm picking up N3 at the normal time from work. Tomorrow, I'm going to meet up with N1 for Starbucks, although we will need to go to another of the 3 nearby locations because Peter always goes there on Saturday morning/afternoon. He tried calling me not even half an hour ago. I bet he left a message. I didn't even check to see if there is one... Yup. There was one from him. It said "I'm getting concerned. Call me back." Uh no. Stop trying to reel me back in! He doesn't understand the concept of "ghosting".
My stomach ache is basically gone. I ate cereal around 4:45 this morning. It still hurts a tiny bit, but nothing I can't deal with.
My flowers from my friend from when i was in the hospital have basically all died. It has been 3 weeks tomorrow, hasn't it? Speaking of that, I think the increased Seroquel and Haldol have really helped. Except that I ate TWO bowls of cinnamon life cereal this morning. Haven't wanted lunch from the ache, but maybe dinner will be okay? Oh but that same friend texted today to say that soon we can get together. I haven't seen her in ages. She went on a trip with her boyfriend for one thing and he's still going to be visiting her place for a few more days. But hopefully after that we'll be able to get together.
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Qui Cantat Bis Orat ingrezza 80 mg
Propranolol 40 mg Benztropine 1 mg
Vraylar 3 mg
Gabapentin 300 mg
Klonopin 1 mg 2x daily
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