Dear T,

I think I need to put things away for a little while. I am feeling like I can't deal with all of this. All of the unknown. Waiting for old T to get in touch about someone to work with; waiting for you to let me know how I can get my things back; waiting to see what the future holds for us; trying to find someone else to continue the trauma work with.

It's all too much for me and I am wasting my life while I wait. I wonder if I can just try to put it all to one side for now, and then just deal with things as they come up. I'm really not feeling it with this one lady, so I'll go next week and then say I've just decided to have a break from it all I think, though I am seeing another new person next week too, and I will stick with that as she seems very very different to most of the people that I have encountered. I'm intrigued more than anything, and it is free, too.

I've got a few sessions lined up in September too, with the first lady I saw, but then if that doesn't feel right either I am calling it a day.

I can't go through all of this again. I can't keep waiting for something that might never happen.

I just feel done tonight. I hope you are well and managing ok. Love you.