I have this thing about comparing myself to other people as well. Like when I have talked about wanting to go to uni (I applied, got rejected and then my life circumstances changed so I could no longer afford to apply in the years after)..my T has said how he travelled back and forth with a long commute to his uni, working long hours in a ****** job to afford it etc etc. But it doesn’t sound like he has any responsibilities then really, except for himself.

Now I having a baby and due Friday, if I talk about going to uni I can guarantee he will say people do it at the same time as raising kids having a job and stuff….but I just feel jealous of those people because they must clearly have a lot of help, at least for childcare! Like most of us I have been struggling with money especially through the last 18 months. So when he goes on holiday and rents cute little cottages and stuff, it does sting that he has enough money to do that and I can barely put petrol on my car.

But at the same time, I know no one has a perfect life…if I got to look closely at my Ts life, I’m sure I would see a lot of guilt from hurt he has caused people, marital issues, weight struggles and other things that I can’t even guess at. No one has it together, we just wouldn’t be human if we did. I understand what a horrible feeling it is to compare ourselves to others though.