Hi, when I first joined here, seven years ago, it was for things my, now ex, was dealing with. Now I'm here for me. It will be a year next month since we divorced. Going on two that I've been on my own. Sometimes I actively think about the things I've gone through & try to understand, forgive & not let any of it effect my future life. Sharing with friends, at least a little, has proved beneficial. It's clarified some things for me. Mostly I just let my subconscious ruminate over matters. Which is why I will have epiphanies from time to time. Definitely ben awakened & enlightened. With more than just what I was initially focusing on. I don't know how much I'll open up about here. Though it is helpful to receive support, even from afar. I will say this, some of it has to do with both child & domestic abuse. Both were emotional, psychological, verbal, physical.