Quote:
It took me being incredibly vulnerable to reach those inner child places with her because like you say, we are adults now, and our inner critics may well be dismissing of it all, but in a way, I was lucky. I had nothing left to lose at that point, or so it seemed. I had just lost my Mum, my marriage was falling apart, I had no friends, no hobbies, no family I would let near me. The only good thing in my life at that point was my job, and I knew I would lose that if I ended up back on the drugs, so it was a leap I had to take, and I was lucky that my therapist was there to catch me.
It's hard work though, not for the faint hearted, but then, I don't think counselling ever is!!
|
I’m so sorry that you had to stop working with your T now, that must be so hard. I hope that you’re coping OK. Despite this, you don’t regret letting her in? I mean, showing your vunerability? I’m so afraid that my T will leave me. I’m not sure if she is experienced enough to deal with this kind of stuff.
Do you feel guilty towards your mum? I do, all the time. I question myself, like, I know that she probably did the best she could... but that wasn’t enough. Can you blame someone who did their best? It’s like my mum is divided in two, one good and one bad.
I know that my mother loves me but I don’t feel it.