I was in almost agony last night over missing my transference T. In a week it will be 6 months since I last saw her. I’ve had 16 therapy sessions with 2 different therapists. 12 with unprofessional one and 4 with my current one. I could have been having a fever dream last night since I took some extra meds last night. But it seemed like a legit feeling. I see my Pdoc at 3:30 so I’m going to talk to him about my feelings about her and how tough it still is. Maybe he’ll let me write a letter or send an email to her.