I suffer from severe depressive episodes from Complex PTSD.

The pain is intolerable at times.

It feels like others don't understand why I am feeling so down.

To me, It feels like I am treated differently because reaction to events causes a profound intense pain that others can't understand.

I am not seen as ill but emotionally unstable. They seem to think I lose control and become weak on purpose. Some how my thoughts are to blame, even though my body reacted before a thought arose.

I spend so much time and effort trying to repair but never get anywhere for long.

I am trapped with a major problem that has no end to it. The pain is too much.