I definitely felt physically awful when I first got depression - I was on holiday with my family at the time. I went to bed my normal, relatively happy 10 year old self, and woke up feeling lethargic, with heavy limbs and like I just couldn’t do anything. I don’t think I’ve ever been quite like my pre-10 year old self again, though I’ve improved a lot over the years, especially once I realised what had happened to me.