I haven’t heard anything from her. I know I sent it less then 2 hours ago though. I also haven’t heard back from my current T. I sent her an email this morning explaining what happened on Wednesday. Basically I just feel like a liability to everyone. I’m pretty nauseated tonight and I’m not sure if it’s med related. I did take the 20mil melatonin and the 160mil Geodon together. Or if I’m just really stressed. I took a zofran to see if that would help with my nausea. The first thing I saw on my Facebook when I checked in this afternoon was an end of world meme. So I deactivated my Facebook and I’ll probably go back to antennae TV the way I did last summer. Just completely shut myself off from the news. It worked last summer. I do have to remind myself I’m dealing with PMDD right now and one of the symptoms is intense reaction to criticism and rejection. So what I am feeling could be largely that. I mean. I PMS every 7-12 days of every month. That could be a big part of things and why some days I’m cool about transference T and other times I’m a mess. But if she doesn’t respond to my email then I really do need to let her go.

My Pdoc did call in my Valium and it went through insurance. So I guess until I get my surgery in October I’ll be able to do 4 a day as needed instead of 3 a day. I know it’s not the best idea but I really need the extra help. I’m glad I’m not going to run out though. I was short several days.