I have a similar thing. I'm looking at going overseas for a while and my therapist has started asking me to have a think about whether there is a single issue that we could focus on until then. I have been having trouble thinking of something. One night it suddenly occurred to me 'maybe he is suggesting / hinting that we focus on the issue of termination'. It suddenly hit me that maybe he was hinting that we wouldn't keep in touch and we wouldn't see each other again.
I emailed him and asked him if he was suggesting that and he said that he wasn't. That we could email and that he would be here for me once I got back. But still, I do have little moments of panic like that. Even though he has reassured me that we will continue working together.
What helps me? I guess I think a little about how my panic is probably more a response to past abandonments than to the actual liklihood that I'm being abandoned in the present. Just to be aware of that. If I tell myself I'm being 'silly' or something like that then I don't find that helps me particularly, though. Sometimes it helps to seek reassurance from him directly (like asking him whether he meant for me to think about termination). Sometimes his response is a bit comforting. Othertimes it doesn't really help, though. I just need to do some self-soothing things for myself to help myself feel a little better. I really think that it does get better with time.
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