I was listening to this song last night that reminded me of my transference T. Especially the part that went “he pleads and he try’s but he’s always denied.” I mean is it normal for her to completely ignore me like this even after my Pdoc said I could email her? I mean like what is she thinking and feeling regarding me?

I eat mint Aero candy bars because they remind me of her. But I’m running out of them. Kind of like how I’m running out of energy to continue to stress about this when she wants nothing to do with me.

Those candy bars are hard to find since they are European. Maybe I should just stop eating them and drinking the blue fruit tea that also reminds me of her.